101 things about myself.

1. I am, in fact, Christian.
2. I am gay.
3. I am happily taken.
4. I DO believe in the future of agriculture.
5. I want and plan on joining the Air Force.
6. I will finish college.
7. I want to be a chef, maybe cook in Italy.
8. I love Toyota and want a Tundra.
9. I believe that friends come and go.
10. I believe ignorance is the root of racism.
11. I love FFA.
12. I love my parents.
13. My mom is short and fiesty, but sooo loveable.
14. My dad is gay, but that doesn't mean anything.
15. I'm adopted.
16. I like blogging, I just forget to do it.
17. I love technology and can't imagine life without it.
18. I text way too much.
19. I can be a b... you know.
20. I want to write a book.
21. I'm impatient.
22. It's hard for me to come up with things about myself for this.
23. I love tattoos and may be addicted to them.
24. I drink when I want, but am by no mean, an alcoholic.
25. I still like being a kid, even after 20.
26. If you're a jerk to me, watch out.
27. I strongly dislike brown nosers.
28. I also strongly dislike those that don't realized they're being brown-nosed.
29. I love dogs.
30. I hate cats.
31. Someday I want my own farm.
32. I can never decided my favorite drink, I like too many drinks.
33. I can decide my favorite song, but it changes constantly.
34. I can decide my favorite TV show, but it changes too.
35. I want to preform as a drag king at least once.
36. I like to fish.
37. I think cocky people can go... play in traffic.
38. I have no problem with marijuana being legalized. It's organic and natural, and should definitely be legalized for medical purposes.
39. I think the iPad is stupid. Next will be the iTampon.
40. I love being a girl other than that one week a month, which I don't understand why it has to happen.
41. I have a lot of flaky friends.
42. I love daschunds.
43. Cheaters (in relationships) make me angry.
44. I probably have an anger management problem.
45. My favorite color is green.
46. I've kissed in the rain.
47. I love Netflix.
48. I have an addictive personality.
49. I love xbox.
50. I love Call of Duty.
51. I'm obsessed with free-for-alls.
52. I love iPods.
53. My favorite energy drink is Bawls or Full Throttle (green).
54. I like to break rules.
55. I hate boundaries.
56. I say "God bless you!" anytime anyone sneezes, even if I don't know them.
57. I love meeting new people.
58. It's realllllyyyyy hard for me to keep coming up with new things to say.
59. I love Official Dress.
60. I don't understand why you would need a TV bigger than 40".
61. I think people who spend thousands of dollars on crap have no respect for human kind.
62. If I ever became a millionare, I would donate A LOT of it.
63. I love to dance.
64. I love music.
65. At one point in my life I could play a lot of instruments.
66. I hate gossiping, but I find myself a part of it at times.
67. I like watching Youtube videos. I could probably spend my whole day on it.
68. I'm an only child.
69. I think I would be great at advertising and coming up with slogans.
70. I think I would be a great chef/ restaurant owner.
71. I think I would be a great ag teacher.
72. I still am not 100% sure what I want to do with my life.
73. I was in 4-H and FFA.
74. I love Ellen DeGeneres.
75. I like Oprah.
76. I like to color.
77. I love learning.
78. I love smelly markers and flip charts.
79. I REALLY try to be healthy.
80. Humans are beautiful yet gross all at the same time.
81. I bought almost 1400 plastic eggs for $20.
82. I collect pocket knives.
83. I love jackets.
84. I love winter.
85. I would rather freeze to death than burn.
86. I'm not scared of dying.
87. I would be impressed if you're still reading this.
88. I <3 google.
89. I think that every year of your life gets better as time goes on.
90. I also think that there are more memorable years than others.
91. I love sharpies.
92. I wish I knew more about art, but I still like to pretend.
93. I love swimming.
94. I tan really easy.
95. I LOVE food.
96. I want a Mac.
97. I love people and meeting new ones.
98. I love traveling.
99. I love new experiences, people, food, etc.
100. I have a lot of view on politics, government and religion but I will NOT voluntarily talk about them. I find those subjects to be the worst ones to talk about.

101. I am me. Take me or leave me.



This was super hard and took me about 8 months to finish. Damn.
Alright well, you should try it too.

Shalom in the home.

From experience I can say all of this with some conviction.

Be Happy, Don't worry.
Exactly. Doesn't seem like a freakin hard concept to understand. Sometimes... it is. Right now, life is pretty good for me. I am in a very happy relationship, I just got a new job, a new tattoo, a new house for sure, and financially things are starting to look up. What's the problem you ask? Well, I'm waiting. I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm waiting for something to go terribly terribly wrong. I know what you're thinking... "stop thinking like that!" "think positive." "geeze, negative Nancy." It's just that when things are going so freakin good, you wonder... am I not noticing something that I should be? But, then I take it back. We really should think positively. We really shouldn't worry so much. We gotta stop focusing on what's wrong, or in my case what COULD go wrong, and focus on the now, the good, and the happy. Life would be pretty miserable if all we did was worry, and expect the bad and the ugly. I have a couple friends who could testify to that... so seriously, don't worry, be happy. :)

"Build a bridge and get over it."
Harsh, but true. If you know me at all, you know that I can be blunt, harsh, and honest. Personally I think we all need people like that in our lives. I have one, sometimes I want to punch her in the face, but its good to have her around. Anyways, thats not the point. Lately I've noticed that some of my friends are... living in the past, still worried about what happened yesterday, or the horrible thing that happened to them 5 years ago. Now I'm not saying you should shove these issues into a bottle just to let them explode later. Just deal. I haven't exactly had a perfect life. Sh** happens. Pardon my French. But we gotta deal, then build a bridge and get over it. I'll admit, I've victimized myself. And sometimes I find myself doing it. It's important that we catch our selves when we do and remember this process of dealing, building and getting over it. Otherwise... we can't even start "being happy and not worrying."

I've been workin' on the railroad...
Last, hard work really does pay off. I have noticed a couple of my friends who have been less than motivated to do anything with their lives. It drives me nuts. It might be because my advisors taught me that you have to be motivated to accomplish goals and such, but still. You gotta have goals first. I just wanna shake people and tell them to grow up! Especially people who take things for granted. It's like on My super Sweet 16. Oh how I hate that show. Whiny little rich snobby kids who don't care who they hurt to get what they want. Disgusting. I wanna send them all to Africa to stay there. See if they can survive til there super sweet 17th... My point is... and i do have one (HA i love Ellen)... is this: Not happy where you are? Feel lazy? Whined to get what you want lately? Well... WORK A LITTLE. Geeze.

The End
You might be wondering why I've said all this... well because I've been noticing those three issues the most.I'm not perfect either, never claimed I was but, I hope the people dealing with each will read this. Hate it or love it. Take or leave it. It's your choice. It's your life. What do you want to do with it?



Shalom in the Home.

Summer is here and so are all the questions that come with it.

Summer is usually a time to celebrate, a time to relax and get a tan... yeah right.
Summer comes and I panic.
I have to have something to do! If I don't, I start to think of everything I have to do to get ready for next year, I worry about where my life is going when it's just fine.

My year as a state officer is over, but my influence is not. After convention was over, I began to think about life. Where was it going? Had I done anything worth mentioning in my short 20 years? Just because I served for Kansas FFA doesn't mean I did it right.

I started thinking about all the service experiences I've had. Mission trips to Mexico, service projects of all sorts, including canned food drives, cleaning, and traveling to Mississippi to help clean after the hurricane, being an intern/assistant youth pastor, being a state officer... and what exactly do they amount to? For me if I know I've touched one person, thats awesome! But lately... that doesn't satisfy me. I want to really help people. Somehow make a positive difference.

Perhaps I have. But what now? I can't just stop there.
None of us should just stop there. Our service should never stop.

Right now I am living back in my hometown for the summer and I can't decide if thats the best decision. I should be doing more. Or should I? Should I relax? I have no idea.

All I know is that I have a lot of people who are doing amazing things. Mr. Epler- teaching in Kuwait, Annarose-studying in France, Becky- Internship with Cargill, Emily-studying in the Czech, Shane-at home farming, Emilie- at home farming, etc.

What am I supposed to be doing? In time, the answer will show up. For now, I am enjoying a stress free summer. A summer where I am finally openly gay with an amazing girlfriend. For now the summer consists of seeing my cousin get married, another one graduate, traveling here and there in Kansas and Oklahoma, swimming, seeing and playing with the puppies, and going out with my awesome friends.

Summer is summer. Life goes fast, I guess I'm learning to enjoy it and live in the moment even more. Yeah, thats it. Ya know? I'm ok with that. I can be the support of those that are doing amazing things but maybe have doubts? I can be a cheerleader! :) I have been know to "celebrate" people every now and again ;)

So remember, life life, enjoy it while you can and... celebrate.

Shalom in the Home.

Why yes, yes I do enjoy a good campaign.
A National one.
One for a cause I believe in.
Not a political campaign, thats just silly.

I'm talkin about... CAMPAIGNS.

The latest two I participated in were A Day Without Shoes, for TOMS shoes and then Day of Silence to campaign against the harassment of gay people.

For the first, it was pretty simple. You just... wear nothing on your feet. It's actually kinda weird. I grew up on a farm so I was always barefoot, but because of civilization and domesticity I learned to put shoes on. Gross. And now, after all that conditioning to put on shoes, I didn't wear any one day... and my freakin feet started to hurt. Seriously? There are kids all over without shoes everyday of their life and I can't go one day without them? I make myself sick. But on this day, I also realized we live in too much comfort. As I had my shoes off, I felt... vunerable, exposed. Like at any moment a shard of glass could penetrate my foot and/or maybe I would step in poop or something and get a disease. It was interesting to me that I felt so exposed just by one simple act. However, I felt good about it. The whole idea of the campaign was to make people aware of TOMS shoes and that there are kids with no shoes. See TOMS shoes gives shoes to those kids. For every pair bought, they give. I'm thinking about being a representative next year for them. Here is the website if you wanna learn more: http://cdn2.tomsshoes.com/default14.htm


The next campaign was Day of Silence. Holy crap that was hard. I learned about it through my friend Dusty on facebook. It seems simple... but for people like me that like to talk... DANG! The point of this is very simple though. You don't talk, people figure that out, ask you why, and you hand them a piece of paper that explains why, they can join or find out how they can help your cause. Your cause being to stop harassment of gays, and promote love in the world. Awesome. Here is the website for that: http://dayofsilence.org/index.cfm
Apparently this year, it went very smoothly and there were some amazing stories.

Anyways, I encourage people to get involved in causes and campaigns such as these. Stop sitting like a bump on a log and freakin do something! You aren't helping anyone by being selfish. That's that.

Shalom in the home.

Newness. Is that even a word?

I’m new to this whole blogger thing. Kind of. I have to write blogs for my position this year, but other than that- the only blogging I’ve done was on myspace or facebook. Hardly blogging compared to this stuff. This crap is intense.

However lately, I’m especially noticing how we are easily fascinated with new things. New websites, new relationships, new toys, new foods, new everything.
It’s weird.
I’m new to blogging, I feel like blogging because of it. My relationship was new about 4 months ago… it still feels new and I still feel giddy about it. I still like to go on dates. The last couple nights I had a new food… I want it again tonight… weird.

Then I realized FFA was like that for me. When I was in highschool, probably freshmen or sophomore, I was so pumped about it. At the beginning of this year, I was pumped about it. I guess I’ve just burnt myself out or something because I’m just ready for the year to be over. Not that I don’t love what I do, because I do love every moment. I guess I’m just ready to move on. I am going to continue to give 100% til my year is over.
It’s what I’m doing after that that worries me. Everyone know I can be a little random at time, and I like spontaneity. Which means, who knows what I’ll do with my life. The only thing I know that I really want… is a Tundra…

 

Either one would suffice. :)

Anyhow. I have a love for Toyota, blogging, my sig. other, and pasta with Caesar dressing. Are there any questions?

Good.

Shalom in the Home.

The many definitions of facebook:

A. A way for students to procrastinate any and all homework.

B. An social networking tool for people to keep in touch with each other.

C. A internet site on which you can communicate with friends, while adding applications such as Farm Town.

 

Lately, I have been on Facebook more than usual. Why? Two words. Farm Town. That’s right… Farm Town. It’s an application on facebook in which you become a farmer. You plow fields, plant crops, get livestock, sell all of it, buy barns, windmills, carts, hay bales, silos, etc. Why is it so addicting? In the game, you can advance levels and make a whole lot of money. As you are advancing as a farmer, you also are competing with friends. Trying to get to their level or staying ahead of them by buying more land… not that I would know that.

Currently my goal is to stay ahead of my best friend Annarose, and my girlfriend, Brittney. The competitive spirit in me has come out, and I must be levels ahead of them, and my farm MUST be better! Bahahaha.

While it’s no concern to Brittney, to Annarose it is. The other day her crops went to waste. I felt a little guilty so I let her harvest my crops, (You can hire people to harvest your crops when they are ready so you and the other person make more money.) because it was the right thing to do.

Now Annarose is almost ahead of me… Oi. Guilt.

Anyways, if you have Facebook, you should add it. Unless you want to use your spare time for other things. Like watching iCarly. Or just being on Facebook in general because we all know we do it. We’re obsessed.

Anyways, enough with the blogging.

Shalom in the Home.

And its only here to say that I will blog later.

Shalom in the Home.