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A New Chapter.
Posted by Brynndn
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1:10 PM
Summer is here and so are all the questions that come with it.
Summer is usually a time to celebrate, a time to relax and get a tan... yeah right.
Summer comes and I panic.
I have to have something to do! If I don't, I start to think of everything I have to do to get ready for next year, I worry about where my life is going when it's just fine.
My year as a state officer is over, but my influence is not. After convention was over, I began to think about life. Where was it going? Had I done anything worth mentioning in my short 20 years? Just because I served for Kansas FFA doesn't mean I did it right.
I started thinking about all the service experiences I've had. Mission trips to Mexico, service projects of all sorts, including canned food drives, cleaning, and traveling to Mississippi to help clean after the hurricane, being an intern/assistant youth pastor, being a state officer... and what exactly do they amount to? For me if I know I've touched one person, thats awesome! But lately... that doesn't satisfy me. I want to really help people. Somehow make a positive difference.
Perhaps I have. But what now? I can't just stop there.
None of us should just stop there. Our service should never stop.
Right now I am living back in my hometown for the summer and I can't decide if thats the best decision. I should be doing more. Or should I? Should I relax? I have no idea.
All I know is that I have a lot of people who are doing amazing things. Mr. Epler- teaching in Kuwait, Annarose-studying in France, Becky- Internship with Cargill, Emily-studying in the Czech, Shane-at home farming, Emilie- at home farming, etc.
What am I supposed to be doing? In time, the answer will show up. For now, I am enjoying a stress free summer. A summer where I am finally openly gay with an amazing girlfriend. For now the summer consists of seeing my cousin get married, another one graduate, traveling here and there in Kansas and Oklahoma, swimming, seeing and playing with the puppies, and going out with my awesome friends.
Summer is summer. Life goes fast, I guess I'm learning to enjoy it and live in the moment even more. Yeah, thats it. Ya know? I'm ok with that. I can be the support of those that are doing amazing things but maybe have doubts? I can be a cheerleader! :) I have been know to "celebrate" people every now and again ;)
So remember, life life, enjoy it while you can and... celebrate.
Shalom in the Home.
Summer is usually a time to celebrate, a time to relax and get a tan... yeah right.
Summer comes and I panic.
I have to have something to do! If I don't, I start to think of everything I have to do to get ready for next year, I worry about where my life is going when it's just fine.
My year as a state officer is over, but my influence is not. After convention was over, I began to think about life. Where was it going? Had I done anything worth mentioning in my short 20 years? Just because I served for Kansas FFA doesn't mean I did it right.
I started thinking about all the service experiences I've had. Mission trips to Mexico, service projects of all sorts, including canned food drives, cleaning, and traveling to Mississippi to help clean after the hurricane, being an intern/assistant youth pastor, being a state officer... and what exactly do they amount to? For me if I know I've touched one person, thats awesome! But lately... that doesn't satisfy me. I want to really help people. Somehow make a positive difference.
Perhaps I have. But what now? I can't just stop there.
None of us should just stop there. Our service should never stop.
Right now I am living back in my hometown for the summer and I can't decide if thats the best decision. I should be doing more. Or should I? Should I relax? I have no idea.
All I know is that I have a lot of people who are doing amazing things. Mr. Epler- teaching in Kuwait, Annarose-studying in France, Becky- Internship with Cargill, Emily-studying in the Czech, Shane-at home farming, Emilie- at home farming, etc.
What am I supposed to be doing? In time, the answer will show up. For now, I am enjoying a stress free summer. A summer where I am finally openly gay with an amazing girlfriend. For now the summer consists of seeing my cousin get married, another one graduate, traveling here and there in Kansas and Oklahoma, swimming, seeing and playing with the puppies, and going out with my awesome friends.
Summer is summer. Life goes fast, I guess I'm learning to enjoy it and live in the moment even more. Yeah, thats it. Ya know? I'm ok with that. I can be the support of those that are doing amazing things but maybe have doubts? I can be a cheerleader! :) I have been know to "celebrate" people every now and again ;)
So remember, life life, enjoy it while you can and... celebrate.
Shalom in the Home.
